why me again god????

The pain of my heart breaking,

Is worse than the pain of being alone,
I must suffer this pain in silence,
As I lay here all on my own.
Love has smashed my being,
The hurt is becoming to strong,
My emotions are constantly freeing,
I fear very soon they'll be gone.
This heart of mine rejects me,
Its left nothing but an empty hole,
I used to think you set me free,
Now there's not much left in my soul.
If love was a disease it'd be fatal,
I stare into outer space,
I put all my cards on the table,
But you just threw them back in my face.
I can feel the pain over-taking,
I regret not being there enough,
I feel my heart quickly breaking,
As I say good-bye to my love.
Now the hurt is making me numb,
I'm in pain every time I see you,
As I stare up into the sun,
It blinds but I'm trying to see through.
I feel the anger rising,
What the hell have I done,
The pain seeps out from inside me,
Until the pain is all gone.

why me again god?